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A SECRET I have a secret: a flower I hide in my palm, in my eye, beneath my porch, in my soilless heart. She wilts, she blooms in the shadows of my life. She is nurtured and neglected at my whim. I reject her, castigate her, but she is in my blood, flawless, she races my pulse, her occasional mocking deconstructs me. I have a secret: a flower I hide, showing no one. A racy object withering in the boredom dark of my pocket, blooming hot and lovely when I bring her out in the disguises of others. The clouds gather to admire her. The rain shatters in reflecting applause. I have a secret: a flower I hide from those I love, those I despise, those I rely on for comfort and sustenance and sanity. She sits alone atop a mountain. Only the birds of prey pass over, their eyes shining in lusty hunger. Her beauty marked by sorrow, by weather, but undiminished, undimmed, and especially unknown. I have a secret: a flower I hide in my hideous hand; she only blooms for me, but then, not incrementally in the shadows of my life, dying dully in her spectacular colors, perfect petals, wet weeping roots. Sobbing in the corner where I swept her. I strangle her with my need. I have a secret: a flower I hide. The only flower I know to bloom in darkness, to endure me, to adore me. I have a secret: a flower I hide. Cared about but not cared for. Almost open. She won't show everything. Leaning toward the sound of rain, of thunder, crackling their promises in the unattainable distance. THE WOLVES The wolves. The wolves come. There they are, hidden by the falling snow, treading certainly on soft sure pads, just beyond the cloak of cluttered trees that hang heavy with ice, their silhouettes like dastard scarecrows. The wolves. The wolves quicken at my scent. Teeth like yellow sickles. Blood in their flaring nostrils. Tongues lolling like carefree feet dangling in the summer lake. They are terrible and beautiful and ready. The wolves. The wolves have always been coming. Eyes like ice, like scimitars, like steel. Eyes like frozen flint, like dull nickels, like murder. Eyes that will find me. And when the eyes find me the wolves will slaughter the lamb in my soul.
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