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Silver Grey Fox
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BEFORE YOUR DEPARTURE I don't know how to say goodbye. I run after you, a grip on sound, seconds counting, it's here, it's there a shutter closed, one is lost, no, found, remembered, forgotten, circles of losing and recovering. I take close pictures to hold down memories, keep albums, diaries, memoirs...you must not go. This is how to pose to be remembered. Holding the negative, it is good to be able to read you like book, dreaming. I linger till night on the shore, it gathers in clouds and darkness, lens impaired I put down my camera. God! How good moments slip. The past is always lost no matter how much we try, we only remember, and remembering is never it, never real. Looking so sure in the vacant horizon of smiles I know you will be gone, everyone must return home in the end. I know. But if you are still here sing, touch me, touch me on every string let me hear it in the silence that comes. ME ACROSS When I welcome me, across In a mirror as an eye, I saw it all: The deep hollow rimmed by Collar bones, bare matchstick fingers Wizened and jutting, sickle neck, Sunken eyes counting my bones, 32 teeth and jaws, spindling legs And sways, a crack of smile Burning reasons for mucky frown, Coarse pout lusting to kiss My smooth cheeks closing its buds. I am just an eye. Like the coming season I am longing. The mirror did it. But mirrors are not guilt, we are. Held down by Images, groping, Stretching, looking at ugly me, Holding towards me bright flowers. Nothing is in between but round faces, What we are told beauty is, hanging on Billboards of bright streets Always smiling never old, Never, never old. For fifty years he had always returned And I was always ready too, but Now he returned and feels not the same. His silence said it; you can see As an eye, you can see it all Through the familiar mirror You can see it all. I saw it, shedding old leaves, Cringing of memories, I saw it, Through the old familiar mirror, How like memories I stand apart, How like foe I can not take love From me across Knowing, no other intruder Nothing is truer, Nothing is acceptable, Nothing but beauty and youth.
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